sexualzheimer

you remember your old self
but it's gradually fading away

lone..

When you're lonely, it's more the inertia that feels heavy, the difficulty of building a group that stick. Without this momentum away goes the drive to relate with others. Double penalty. Out of any social context, the upfront cost is quite high, so you have to walk knowing it's gonna be a slow, sensitive~, process.
Hopefully the logarithmic sieve of nociception will kick in soon enough.

phenotypic illusion [incomplete]

It's crazy that it's easier to bend your physical appearance to match sexual pulsions. Crazy that these two can grow apart so unrelated. Y chromosome rendered useless. It'd be better if it was totally non-functioning.

The most 'amazing' is the incoherent perception of the outside world. Finding a girl attractive, absorbed by her beauty, yet not willing her to grow an adult woman body. You're moved by an appearance you want to have on someone else that you want to be a man. Inverted wires.

to be continued...