Someone's girlfriend texted me yesterday. My phone was off, typical passive aggressive cut from people. She's almost always nice to me. But this is a first. There was no side-projects or event. Just an 'Don't ask why, I think of you, hoping you're fine'. She has no idea I think about her when I hold my pillow. Helps me bootstraping tender-filled of girl closeness fantasies. I'm gonna play outbid by revealing this to her. It's rare that girls displays little signs of affection. Very rare. But that's the second time she come forwards to me. Earlier this summer she gave me a kiss on my cheek, out of the blue. No girl ever did this, it's was subtle and sweet. Just what I'd need from a girl. I'm not angry enough to really think she's sad or bored. Plus she's supposed to be free of kids, they're both schooled now. Maybe work seeking reminds her of me. I'll see. This won't help me dreaming about us flirting gently. I'll answer her tomorrow, her man will be at work. I won't steal her from him (0% chances this could happen in any universe) but I care about "our" relationship. Things I can share with her are private. Even if it's strong feelings. I'm surprised how shooked I am now. Wet eyes. It ..
Am I in my other girl~friend thoughts too ? she was embarrassed by my affection and quite cold when I disclosed how desperate I am about my sexual situation. I don't think she's gonna hold me in her mind often or long from now on. She loves her cat much more.
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