sexual shift bias

I feel for girls, aesthetically, emotionally (girls affection, attention makes me feel happy, physical closeness too the rare time that happened), Since ever. Not in a sexual way though, it seems. Would this be just normal friendship reaction toward a group with whom I'd share similar mental traits ? with the addition of 25 years of longing for their interest in a sexual way that wasn't feasible because of me, it could be an artificial amplification.