Friday, October 25, 2013

another dreadful day

today had no girl time. I'm dark and hateful. I can't stand the others.

Still trying to see how I feel on pictures, nothing works (gay or not), sometimes half naked women with nice breasts trigger something. Maybe a little space in my brain left to build new 'porn' feelings.

As I'm searching for a sexology specialist, I think that before spilling my life to a doctor, maybe I could just try something at a bar. Reading about 'first kisses' on boards, I have thoughts of kissing, and unlike the last weeks where male bodies had just a few times a lasting effect on me, and only 'nasty' ones, I see myself touching his, shoulder to butt, dicks touching, pleasuring. Another sign I should give up on girls. As I finish this thought, the very next one is to ask a girl to sleep with her now that I know I'm homosexual so we can cuddle. Weird.

Speaking about cuddling, I remember the movie girl, sleeping close to her face was one of the main thought I had this day.

ps:

watching couple making out, dunno which side I am, but it's rare that I feel like the guy
www.youtube.com/watch?v=hZGVyLTp8Pw

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