I'm thinking about how life would have been if my brain clicked earlier on women's body. I understand is how teenagers behave, nothing matters compared to what this does to your brain. This is higher than art, music, sport or any kind of mental rush I experienced. Also, I pity the teachers who have to manage these crazy minds. If I had been aware of this, I'm not sure I'd have graduated even high-school. I'd probably enjoyed following other guys around for new encounters. This is so late to realize that.
I remember girls drooling before one math teacher, I understood why, the loose teen crush on respected adult figures, he was pure handsomeness too, tall, square, lengthy hair, deep voice, uber wise .... Alpha by definition. The kind of person who gets full attention and respect just by standing there. He earns it, almost nothing he said was out of place, even when slightly insulting it was on point. Once I mumbled something a bit too loud, enough so the whole class heard me. A cold silence filled the room while they were slowly staring toward me. I crossed an unspoken rule that was deeply inside of everybody. I thought I was about to burn, but he let it slipped, maybe he didn't hear it but since everybody did ... He probably gave me a little chance.
This whole thing comes 10 years too late. I can imagine how crazy college can be now. Tons of people from far away, loose relationships, new freedoms... my god I missed so much.
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