in-fans

Infant, Latin infans, means non speaking. I didn't get the real meaning, it's not about physically speaking, but the desire to express one's self. Usually it's around teenage-hood that this process takes place I believe. I think it's happening to me now. It's two fold, first I care less and less about others people feelings whenever I speak, I held it for too long, so long it hurt (the void of people never knowing what you felt for years) so now "fuck it". Lastly, unlike before where I was 'submerged' by others people thought and feelings, I had the crippling mental limit to feel that my ideas were vaporous; now it's the opposite, I feel a lot better throwing things out and letting my mind sink into others.